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[temporicide]

I think I want to show him. But that's another day. It's so many steps, isn't it? Becoming
I know what it is to not want to be a real person anymore.
But I am writing a better fate. A future.

[ But now, narrowing in on that last section of text: ]

What have you done that was so messed up? That was your choice? That you wanted, that you really decided on?

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[Sometimes she says things that remind him so much of Gilia that it hurts. And he knows what she's getting at, even has half a fogged-through memory of having the same conversation with her, before. But:]

I really decided on replying to Jem.

[temporicide]

Maybe that went badly
OK, yeah, it did go badly, but I think putting that on your own shoulders alone is unfair to yourself. Nobody made her say those things, either. I've done it before, too, in fights, believe me. If I saw my middle sister right now
I don't know what she'd say to me.

You guys have a long history together, and when things are horrible, like they are right now, it makes things bubble up

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Yeah, see, that was normal for me and Jem. It's the rest of the time that's the fluke.

[temporicide]

Do you think it's changeable?
If you wanted to change it.

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We've tried. A few times. Last month I had her initial on my chest and her mind in my head. But we always end up back here.

What's the saying? Revert to type.